Placement

Have you ever had something perfectly placed or wedged into a space with other things to where it fit just right? Have you taken that thing out of its place only to have the other surrounding things fill/fall/collapse in the gap your thing left and when you go to try to put it back it won’t fit? You can try to hold/push/prop the other things up, but no matter how hard you labor your thing just doesn’t fit. If you do manage to get it back in place, it is a far cry from the neat placement your thing once held before.

My life: Trying to put myself into a place that neatly fit before, but doesn’t quite fit now.

It’s not a comfortable place – constantly wedging/pushing/propping/trying to find that perfect placement my mind has etched in memory.

Has the gap filled up or has my shape changed? Maybe a little of both.