I finished a book this week: "To Own a Dragon: Reflections on Growing up Without a Father", by Donald Miller *If I had more time to figure out how, I would embed a link in the name --sorry you'll have to look for it yourself* Anyway, this book was great on many levels. One, my dad was absent from my life and I could connect with Don's story. Two, there is a underlying story of photography (something that I love) and thirdly, I realized that there are people out there trying to connect with God through... drumroll... people. I could go on and on about the book, but it touched me and I read it in one evening.

I won't go giving away tons from the book, but I will post one of the biggest statements that made me cry and sit in silence for a while. I read the section to my husband and he said "I don't know why you are crying", so I am guessing it touched me on a very personal level. The quote actually comes from something Dwight Eisenhower commented on and it has left an impression on my heart:

"...The world could be fixed of its problems if every child understood the necessity of their existence".

I won't drone on and on about all the ways this affected me, but I will say that it opened a hole and filled a hole in my heart all at the same time.

Discovery

I just found out: I like to crochet.

Missing Piece

Have you ever had something and then went away from it and then saw that someone else had it? You could still look at it and remember what it was like to have it, but you don't really have it the same way you did... and it makes you sad. You miss it, but can't really have it and now you have to keep moving forward with your memories.

I miss it.

Yep

Ok, obviously I just don't have time to write what I would like to and maybe that will change sometime in the near future, but right now I am just trying to stay above water.

However, I am reading a book series that seems to shed some light on all the things I've been saying for the last 5-6 years. Wow. Read with caution as I think it might offend some, but then again that's me.

Frank Viola.
I started with "Pagan Christianity", which is actually book three (I think).
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0966665732/sr=8-1/qid=1147799118/ref=pd_bbs_1/102-4801400-4649745?%5Fencoding=UTF8

I might start buying copies for people --Only for those who really love me and won't throw eggs at me, and only for people who are in this "church, what the heck?" journey. My goal is not to try to pull others away from something that is bringing them to a place that is good. My goal is just to figure this whole thing out and share and talk about it with others who are on similar paths.

So read it or the others and then talk to me. = )

Jen